No Hope, No Harm, Just Another False Alarm.

/Catch The Last Weekend, Of The Last Week, Before The Gold And The Glimmer Have Been Replaced
(^; insert obligatory, phrase or two about the end of an era approaching here, Im too lazy and inept to effectively articulate it myself, but Im definitely feeling that. A lot. If I write about it Ill get nostalgic and scared and cry, ergo, I am writing about a different topic ce soir)

After the number of drafts (somewhere in the thousands) and pointless accctual posts, I thought Id do a more point... full... one, though I may be somewhat limited in time as the epic failure of my own laptop means I have to borrow the fathers... (edit; I was not)
Fuck I have nothing to say.
Currently I just want to turn 18. I have about 3 weeks now, till I can get my tattoo/s, leggaaalllly purchase alcohol and the dreaded cigarettes, and can... yknow go to clubs and stuff. Though I doubt Ill be utilising that last right so much as the others, excluding face down which just looks ace.
(I just deleted a chunk of this, essentially, I need to attempt some self-reinvention; less paranoia, obsession and social retardation)
One of the quotes I cited before was something along the lines of 'Life is like playing the violin in public, and learning the instrument as you go along', and I think theres so much truth to that. So I spose Im hoping as time goes on Ill have a much stronger sense of self/what it is I want, and Ill be less afraid and overly concerned about certain things... I have a feeling the next year will have a lot to do with that, and right now I have no certain ideas of what Im going to do and where Im going to go, and thats ignited this little spark inside of me which is giving me so much excitement, and probably making the transition a little more painless.
In other news, once again Im plagued by my inability to help people. I dont like that some people dont seem happy and I havent the slightest clue how to fix that. Even a bit. This exists to the extent where Ill avoid talking to people because I just dont know what to say. Though a few people seem to be doing, for the most part, really well, which makes me so very grinnish. This is obviously a synonym for happy now.

This was quite rubbish. But Id really like replies in regard to self-reinvention pliz! (i.e. how exactly do you do that?)