Oh. Whats occurring?
Well I guess its christmas day. But sleep is out of the question for now, and as the sun shrinks I find theres less and less substantial, important/interesting tasks to be undertaken, or whatever... you know, so I become reduced to this type of thing.
Things are going well at the moment, I dont know how much it has to do with this shiny new life philosophyish shit, but its all good. Im not bitter, Im not jealous, Im not terrified, and Im definitely not resentful. Id like to take this opportunity to retract any comments I made to anyone/no one about feeling the afore mentioned emotions directed towards anyone/no one.
I am however, attempting to look forward, make things that arent right better, and enjoy the now, because how fucking sucky would it be to look back a year from now and think 'wow, some of those last two years was really spectacular, but most of it I wasted, ironically enough, worrying about leaving it behind'. That just makes no sense to me, so I shant. And the now is more than worthy of being enjoyed, frankly.
SHAANT.
No one will get that.
In other news, Im taking what could be described as a mild fetish for both electro and acoustic to a new level, well on account of the former, because Im going to try and make some. Its new and its weird and Im excited [=[= Plus apparently Im using the program Justice use. ILLEGALLY. Can the police find this?
Also, in light of my apparent tendency to transpose into some kind of of chain-smoking, desperate bitch when fallen under the influence of any amount of alcohol/stress, I intend to commence the practice of self-discipline... sober or otherwise. This may or may not fall flat the next time I come into contact with either of the previously mentioned... substances? Or... concerns...
Anyways I better go sleep or something.
Or, if you like, 'thatll do, pig'
MERRY CHRISTMAS
