Before You Know It Youre Frozen

(Thats right)
So yeah uhh, sorry for the overreaction which was my last post, if someone happened to read it =/ kind of stupid.
Im just littered with these feelings of not being enough at the moment, in every way. But you know what, Im just going to shut up now, because dwelling on this isnt helping me.

I wasnt ready for today, that I admit. In short, stuff happened, we worried, it's temporarily resolved. And right now Im just really proud, to be honest. Because this kid whos had the most unfair shit thrown at her it defies belief, she let me into her life, and in the short time Ive known her shes... well at times shes reaffirmed my belief in God, which, Im thinking is a pretty big deal, and shes just shown me how possible it is for someone to transform and grow and become so much stronger. Its kind of amazing. Asides from that, theres one or two other people who dealt with this shit today a hell of a lot better than I ever have or will. Im pretty proud to know them, and know that they are that much stronger than me... in a really backwards stupid way that makes me feel more secure. I know some fucking great people, you know?

Today I was also thinking about music. Obviously. I just wanted more than anything to make a few people understand what it means to me and why. But I didnt. Gaahh.

Ima do some work...