^ Thank the sweet baby jesus for their new material. Actual love.
Anyway
Firstly; this will be neither poetic, articulate or interesting. I am bored and if youve read this far, I advise you to stop now.Second; in this post I intend only to write about good things, because the nice bits make me hate myself so much less when I read them back. Plus, I have enough time to think about them, Id rather not write about them as well. So thats... yeah.
Well now. At the moment, I really feel, mostly, like people actually care. Which is the nicest feeling in the world, because I probably dont deserve it (this is not negativity), but it is like... the most important thing. People have been great. A few people just astound me with their capacity to cope. One or two or all of them may not think theyre strong enough, and might not think I know, but I do, and they are. Theyve risen above and beyond a whole lot of things without even realising. Im no longer scaring myself on any levels, and despite feeling slightly ill and veery tired, just seeing people every day, goood phone calls, and the weekend and all... just make anything else so very worth it.
For instance, I got a call from a certain girl who I pretty much barely see any more, due to the... leaving. It made me slightly angry that Id forgotten how really truly lovely she is because it just made me miss her more, but its always good to know that Im not totally out of her life, and she is actually there.
Also, I think... they... left it in the smartest possible way they could have, for the break from school. And though I can feel how short the life of this is, it works for now, on surface level.
Currently enjoying the benefits of 200 minutes and unlimited texts, which is just... gooooood.
Ohhh and my music is back [= Im finally full of lyrics and notes and bars and rhythms. Theyre not great, but I can finally feel that satisfaction of finishing a full song and it not being forced and awful.
And I really love driving! Its all getting a bit instinctive now and I just want to get a license so baddd =/ but theory in like a month (Y)
Plus generally, it just looks like theres some good stuff coming up, which is always good.
Well... I cant think of much to write. But really, right now, Im pretty okay (Y)
So I hope anyone reading this is feeling alright. No actually, better than that. But if theyre not, I sincerely hope they contact mee. You know how it works.
