it's no use, give it up, this is life and this is love.

a little bit exhausted, I guess. I can only ignore that feeling at the back of my head, in the pit of my stomach for so long until it overhauls me and then it's just everything.

at times I think I'm drowning and I just can't seem make anyone give a damn. and I really do hate the way I sound but I can't beat this out anymore.

in a few days I'll bury this, shut the fuck up and go back to positive thinking (believe it or not, that's what I do now, in general, because I won't be a child anymore). plus I have too many great things happening to waste time feeling lonely, most likely making people think even less of me than they already do. I'm sorry. I'm just starting to feel cynical about relationships which you aren't obligated to have for one reason or another. because when it comes down to it, none of us ever fight for them. even when we're convinced we need somebody, we're not there for each other unless we have to be. or, I'm simply useless at all relationships. neither's preferable.

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I think my biggest fear is actually that I'll never be enough for myself.