Come Sing With Me, A Melody, In The Dark Of The Night

Howling Bells. Very very good. I love their song titles /=
Yes, lots of stuff (/no gossipy stuff)+lack of people ot talk to=blog overload, sorryy.

I'm in a very very odd state of mind at the moment. Currently skipping stones on the sea of my mind (aka, pretentious way of saying 'stuff casually occupying my thoughts); I'm less of a lightweight than I used to be. About 1 and a 1/3 of pitcher, ant somewhere between 10 and 25 shots taught me that (no crying, no vom). It was quite a lovely evening. Also, I really hate how alcohol exposes the stuff you like to imagine is all fine. At least two people got me all freaked, and I am not good with responding to that. The worst incident was after the alcohol started to wear, we were down to just a few people and I knew exactly what the tears were for, but could do absolutely nothing about it because it's beyond anyone's control. That's when it makes me want to tell her anything that'll make her understand that I do get it. In fact, if anything, I might end up in a more shitty and frustrating situation than that. I don't think I've ever hugged anyone that tight /= Anyway, she seems okay. That's all I've got, to be honest.

I still am not dealing with the end of school. It's like that thing where you love someone so much that you can't feel how, I'm completely numbed to it. But still the excitement of things to come is not enough to stop my stomach twisting into knots whenever I think about the next few days. I do not feel safe.

In other news, I had a brilliant birthday. It's actually still going on. I have the best family/friends I believe are possible.