Im starting this thing over for a third time today. Its been an empty day because I promised Id dedicate it to revision, or work of some description, youre probably no less surprised than I am upon realising that fell flat.
So I tried over and over to write and pull apart and re-write this so that it sounded less pathetic… third time lucky? Non.
The generally jist of my endless laptop-tapping today has been;
Well Ive come back for about the 16th time and deleted all 4 of these points because they made me sound like a ridiculous, moany moron (does this endless editing defeat the point of a blog?). I think my only point will be;
...this underlying fear /pressure everyone seems to be feeling seems to be ‘the elephant’ in every room. It makes every other thing seem so much worse, and the constant tension means were all wasting the time we have left in this simple safe place. Kind of ironic I suppose, in any case, I also suggested maybe were outgrowing it, and even if no one feels it at all, we could be a little bit ready. Sort of. The sun wont shine forever, afterall...
Asides from this, brilliant conversations, some really just plain good evenings, lovely people and some amazing music is making everything seem less heavy. About 7 people spring to mind, and some of them werent who I expected at all.
(Later addition, sweeet stuff; Sigur Ros, Wilco, Passion Pit, Royksopp and Boards of Canada) These are not only brilliant, but some of them pretty much reflect me at the moment, you know how music just kind of forces emotions on you sometimes? These ones make me feel kind of careless, a little bit lost and/or apprehensive, thoughtful and almost expiring.
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